http://prisongal.onsugar.com/

Needs.

2009-08-14T16:04:00.002+08:00

Just finished SS and English Prelims. Don't want to expect anything, not even a pass. Not because I didn't study, but I don't want disappointment when I expected a lot. During the papers, I was quite annoyed by the schoolmates. They don't even know we are having prelim and they are making a lot noise. I was feeling hot and annoyed. The teachers doesn't seems to care at all. This shows how insignificant the 4NA is. Although there is only 2 classes that are having prelim, but we still need the quietness to do. I make sure when they are having their exam/O level Prelim. I will make the equal level of noise or even higher. You may called me a revengeful person, but I don't care. Treat others as how you want to treat you as.

Moved to: http://prisongal.onsugar.com/

Where're you?

2009-08-13T20:45:00.001+08:00

Best of luck for prelim!

Studied 2 theme for SS. English not at all.
Will I make it?

Miss.

2009-08-12T19:49:00.005+08:00

Don't force me.
Over the limit.
Making me stand more firm.

Finally revise POA. Okay, I shall be discipline. I SWEAR after blogging and facebooking, I shall start to read my SS notes again. Fri-SS and Eng Prelim. I WANT to score for SS!
Will I make it for Prelim? I hope to fail so that I am motivated to study for N level in order to strive for better result. Insane? Lol. Maybe. The outcome of being too stress.

Face it bravely.

2009-08-11T23:04:00.003+08:00

I hate to admit but, 8 months I'd been deceiving myself. I didn't let it go. Simply, I can't run away from reality. Without yours, I'm not contented. A year ago, I still own yours. Where are you? Why didn't yours appear?

4 hours of POA lesson. Home. POA revision, 3 hours again. *sigh of relief.*

6thAug photos

2009-08-10T18:05:00.003+08:00

Photos taken from Tracy's blog.

My keyboard died on me.
Currently using on-screen keyboard,
it is troublesome.
Be back with proper post when it is repaired.
I got the present from Yubin,
the back bag. Thanks!

3 more days to Prelim!:(

Happy 44th birthday, Singapore!

2009-08-09T19:24:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 11 plus. Bath. Lunch. Tiong. Study. Dinner. Tv. After watching, continue studying, til night!

I canceled all my social networking sites. The only one I using is Facebook. Don't be surprised if you can't find me under your friend lists.

7th Aug Photo.

2009-08-08T18:37:00.010+08:00

National Day's Celebration.

Belated Birthday Celebration.

Ytd midnight, KaiJun came over to pass me my card. Texted and slept late 2am? Woke up 10 plus. Homework. Lunch. TV. Bath. Homework. Com. Later dinner and chemistry revision!

Not going to bother about promise breakers.

NC16

2009-08-07T20:40:00.015+08:00

Warming: I had a number of things to blog today so is your choice whether to read on.
Firstly, yesterday which is 6Th Aug, I officially allow to watch NC16. School. IKEA. Home. Playground. Market. Home. Had a small celebration with my dearest childhood friends at the playground. Sing song, cake, and of course camwhored. Went over to market to have our late dinner treated by another birthday girl, SohXiTing. Had String ray. Went around Redhill to slack. A time to recollect our childhood, I guess. Came over my house for few rounds of tai ti and Old Maid. Camwhored. They went back around 10 plus.

Secondly, which today, school for National Day celebration. I was rather high, in fact the whole school was. Mr Anthony was freaking hilarious. Parade. Hall for Don't forget the lyrics & Quiz. "This is home truly, as my sense tells me......." Parade ground for Mass Singing. Everyone camwhored and sing, even teachers. Good things ended. Headed to class to clean up cause I looked like !@$!@$~. Used the national present by school(Towel.) Thoughtful of them. It comes to use cause I was sweating like mad. Cabbed to town cause 174 was filled with people and the heat was killing us. Reached PS. Mos for Lunch. Asshole came, followed by Girlfr. Walked around with Baby while the rest went to prepare for the celebration. Baby and I trained to Cine. Saw Adeline, Girlfr and Asshole coming with balloons which they tried to hide it from me. But it failed anyway. Baby and I went to Level 9 E2-Max. to book. Waited patiently for their arrival. Adeline, Asshole, Girlfr, Love, Affair, Bridget and Eileen arrived with 16 balloons and a "Happy birthday to you" balloon. As we were waiting for 1.30pm to go in, the "Happy birthday to you" balloon flew to the top so we asked a guy who is tall to get it for us, as none of us can reach it. Thanks to him. Went in to the room. Watched "The Wig." It was quite scary. A unpleasant thing happened. A group of guys touched our balloons and knocked our door continuously. We flared up and ran after him. He humji. Forget it, it boils my blood. Continue with our movie. A sad horror movie. After that, we went separate ways with Girlfr, Bridget, Affair, Love and Eileen. Adeline, Asshole and I send Baby to the mrt. Aftermath, went to Taka to find the rest. Surprised. Saw Felicia and Brenda there. Sang song, blew a candles that continues light up after countless of blows. Camwhored. Departed ways with them. They went MT while Adeline and I went for dinner and still figuring out how to go home. While eating dinner, saw Hazel. Finally, we decided to train home. Home sweet home.

All the way, we were the center of attraction. Every one's eye were on us. Anyway, sorry girls. I don't look touched. Really apologized. It's me, not that you all had failed. But deep in my heart, I really THANK you all for the memorable celebration that you cracked your brain real hard to think about it, although I burst some of your plans. Sorry, I think you all spent a lot. Really, this is the most wonderful celebration I had over my 16 years. Lastly, I am really thankful to you all. THANKS for the presents and celebration.! Nothing can describe my gratefulness toward you all!

Happy Birthday, Xiting! (6th Aug.)
Happy Birthday, Dad!(7thAug.)

P/S: I don't have all the photo with me. Will upload if I got them.
P/SS: Thanks to those who had made any effort to wish me in any form of communication!

Photos.
6th Aug

Birthday girl Zilian!

Ang Shu Jun(s)

Last outing till N's is over.
MUG HARD!

Strike 12A.M.

2009-08-05T21:05:00.001+08:00

Chemistry: 5 chapters left.

Determine.

2009-08-04T22:15:00.005+08:00

I.Am.On.Task.

I.Wanted.To.Fall.Asleep.When.Revising.But.I.Preserve.
(((((:
Done with Physics(:

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Home.

2009-08-03T19:45:00.003+08:00

Seeing me through as I grow and learn

Every day's experience, bitter sweet or sour
They're still wonderful as they become precious memories
They'll be kept close to my heart

Seriously, I don't know why nowadays I am easily annoyed by you. Every little thing you do annoy me. Maybe it had gone over the limits. I don't like the fact that I got to do what you told me to. Sometimes, I just go along. But it is going too much and I am getting negative comments for that. Actually I don't really mind cause you are my friend. But now, I think you are just treating me as a spare type, not just me. In order for us to continue, you should change your mindset. You didn't treat us as friend, I guess. When you need me, you ask for me. What is all these? I am not your dog.

Desperate.

2009-08-02T11:14:00.003+08:00

Weird dreams lately.

Woke up early to study.
Intensive revision starts today!

Finally.

2009-08-01T18:37:00.002+08:00

When I was about to breakdown, a miracle happened.

Didn't use com ytd.
The bombed homework had finally finished.
I know how to do Bank reconciliation statement.(:
FINALLY.

MyHero.

2009-07-30T20:57:00.007+08:00

Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly.

Finally, I did serious revision today. I've been really slacking from last Friday. I am going to finish POA and Math TYS. ^^ Adam Khoo's booster tomorrow. Yes, I need more motivation. It should come within myself, but..... Leroy helps more. 15 days to Prelim. 29 days to N's level.):
Anyway, had history test today. I think I did fairly. Can pass I guess? I didn't really study into it cause I wasn't in the right mood to study yesterday so I just merely skimmed through The Policy of Appeasement. Luck I guess, it really came out. Let's hope I will still be lucky til N's level.

Got this from someone. Ya, so I shall try to be mean or sarcastic.
(Wait, people already said I am?)

Are you mean and sarcastic? Have you ever answered people ‘meanly’ and sarcastically? If yes, show us how mean and sarcastic you are! If no, then you should try at least once in your life with this note.

Rule: Respond to these people as mean and as sarcastic you could be!!

If an annoying person says:

1) I am cute.
You? Omg, you are as cute as the sai.

2) I am the most beautiful/handsome.
In your dream right?

3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
They like your money, you meant? Not you, I guess?

4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy.
Really? If you are, you won't be here talking to me. You would be in IMH, cause you had already imagine way too much.

5) You don’t know me? I am Bruneian artist; I have albums!
Apa? I don't give a darm.

If an annoying pretty woman/handsome guy says:

1) I know you like me.
You think you are god, to know the inner me?

2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!!
I am neither interested in you so stop staring at me. If you did not look at me, how in the world you know I am looking at you?

3) Sorry, you are nice, but seriously not my type!
Sorry, you are not my type too. Stop imagining.

4) UNLESS you are rich, then don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
I don't dream about ghost.

5) Look, I am pretty/handsome; I can make people hate you!
Hate you more right? I can double yours.

If an annoying extremely ugly woman/man says:

1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
But I am not interested people who are ugly.

2) May I have your cell phone number, please please please pleaseeeee?
I don't own a cell, although I am prisongal.

3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night..
I shall meet you in your dream.

4) What do you like about me?
I like your stupidity.

5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
Mummy told me not to lie.

If your enemy says:

1) Hi bitch!
Calling yourselves?

2) You smell like shit!
You mean it smell like BO? I smell it too when you walked toward me.

3) I know you hate me because I am much better than you
Better in seducing guys and making people to hate you?

4) What an ugly creature you are!
Omg, you are looking into the mirror and calling yourselves? You have such a low self esteem.

5) I am going to kick your ass in this race for sure!
Provided you can outrun me.

If your ex says:

1) I still love you
So?

2) I know you still love me!!
Love you too much that I leave you.

3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby..
I don't go people house.

4) Please call me..
I don't call people.

If an annoying salesperson says:

1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
Thanks.

2) Seriously, I used this product and look at me, I am changed
Really? I suggest you not to use it anymore. You look like a shit now.

3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
Why not a 100%? I might consider to buy for you to make you more like shit.

4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy..
I think I will not waste money to buy such things.

Rainbow

2009-07-28T19:46:00.008+08:00

我大哭了，可能是忍了太久了，所以哭了。
It is just another learning experience for me to be stronger.
I hope I made the right choice?

To those who are concerned about the matter, everything is already resolved by MrsTay. Thanks for all your concerns. It's over and don't think we should brought it up. Sorry, although I told Alfee what roughly had happened, I don't feel like going into the details. After all, all these started with people spreading around so I don't want to start the ball rolling again. Anyway, a million thanks to those who are confronting me through all these. Ah gong, Clarence & WJ who had been giving me precious advices. The Malay Clique+3 chinese girls? (I know you all don't like to be called this way, but I am lazy to list all of you all, Pardon me.) who talks to me when I was alone or with Adeline. Deeply appreciated for all these. Now, everything is fine already. Kellice and I had cleared all our misunderstanding. Although I am fine with her, I will still talk to you. Honestly, I didn't treat you all as like those spare tyres. I really treat you all as friend. Going recess together these days and talking to you all had allowed us to understand each other more. A big thanks to all of you.

To Kellice: The talking session alone, we had already sorted out all our misunderstanding. We shall start refresh and put everything behind. Something had happened to both of us in the past which led us not trusting anyone fully. We are working toward it together to trust each other. Be frank with each other and no gossip. It applies to everyone out there. Friends doesn't work this way. Actions speaks louder than words. Time shall prove it. There is still some people out there who are trying to tear us apart. However deep in our heart, we know we really care about each other and didn't wanted to harm each other. If we have faith with each other, nothing will ever tear us apart. I guess because of her, we fall out. But now thanks to her, we cleared everything and reconcile . With faith, our friendship will last. All the best for your N's.

GL.

2009-07-27T19:44:00.005+08:00

我已经很努力不去想它，但是却做不到。好难受，好累。真的。我做不到他们所说得不去管它。因为我真的受了伤，无法承受。眼泪不停地流下，而是沉默地流下进心里。No appetite, No mood. Don't ever tell me "You're just a call away." or "I'll be there for you when you need me." Where are you when I needed you?

School = Slack.
(5 periods free.)
N's level Chinese oral = Cannot score well.
(Not up to my expectation.)
Study = no revision.
(Homework only.)

Sorry, but I don't belong to any clique. I am always on my own. No need to beat around the bush. Want to tell me anything, just walk out to me and open your gold mouth.

A sudden feel of alone.

2009-07-26T22:24:00.003+08:00

Why is it always in my life? I remember you once told me that best friend or friend forever does exist. But now, your actions already contradict yourselves. Doesn't it prove my stand? I really don't understand what is friend? What makes up one? It turns out to be a reality that I had no choice but to believe in. I am really tired of it. But it's hard to treat as nothing had happened at all. I already wear a mask but it seems to be not working whenever I am alone. I never knew that you are so fake. Thanks to you, I got a chance to see who is my real 'friend'. Who am I going to trust now?

Moodswing.

2009-07-25T23:47:00.007+08:00

I'm already putting a strong font,

but it will fade aways when I am alone.

Study (1-5.30pm)
BBQ(6-9pm)

Slack at tua(9-9.50pm)

TV(9.55-11pm)
Com(11.30-?)

Why am I feeling so moody?):

Let's take a look of my class.

Stickied with them since sec 3/1 for some,

till next year.
Photo taken over the last 7 months

4/9 with Candice.

Sleepover.

Don't know who birthday?

Class Photo

4/9,Work hard for N's.
Prove to them that it doesn't matter for being the last class,
we will still shine but it will be brighter than the rest.

Joyful.

2009-07-24T16:26:00.007+08:00

School is slack. Dream it to be always like this. Suppose to have Eng.Chi.SS. End. But in the end we only got Eng, which is also slack. Mrs Tay always talks about irrelevant stuff.(Oops.) So ya, it ended fast. Chi was oral, didn't do anything. SS, Ms Ng not in. Then end. Cool not. Anyway, went over to IKEA to have breakfast/lunch? with Adeline and Delia. Over to Queenway, and I FOUND my bag(: haven't buy yet. Waiting.......(the person should know what to do ^^) Delia fetched Adeline back to school by cab, while I went over to Tiong to meet Clarence Cousin. Slack, watched them eat-.- Saw a number of familiar faces, but they don't seem to recognize me. Bused home. Guai not? End school early, go home early(((: Should I go tomorrow??????

Where is all your promises and apology? Is it just a plain shit of lie? I am too naive to say it was okay. Maybe that time I didn't hate you. I just don't understand why were you so sorry about it and there again you did it. When I was about to let the matter rest though, but it seems like it shouldn't be. A leopard never changed its spot. Now I stand firm on my stand. Never to forgive nor forget. You are not on my list anymore. Whatever you said.

If you are so afraid to die, put yourself in a bubble. Never come out. The people who sat around her, didn't fall ill. It is only you, it means you have a weak immune system. That's too bad. Maybe this is your retribution. Better don't push over my limit. I know I'm prettier than you or you are jealous of me, what so ever, stop staring at me! You're just a coward. When I stared back at you, you look away. What crap? Please don't let me explode, I swear I will make your life difficult. I am not threatening you, I am serious. I already tolerated for months. I am not scared of your mother, mummy girl. 16 already, still everything complain to mummy. You think you are the only one who has mummy? Please, I have too. But I won't bothered her cause you are too small thing for her to handle. You are just scared so you need your backup. I don't think I am in the wrong. I got to stand up for my own rights by myself.

Gossip.

2009-07-23T20:42:00.005+08:00

School. Remedial. Home. Dinner. Study.
Remedial was hilarious.
Mrs Tay was funny.
For a moment,
she and the class thought I took drugs, due to my impair hearing.
Daddy finally going to work tmr!(:
Tmr end school early(:
Going to IKEA and Queenway.
Maybe town.

To that fat ass: If you're unhappy with me, come and find me. No point talking in the washroom. Walls have ears. You tell her, you think she has the guts to come and find me? You overestimate her. Seriously, I am not even related to you. I don't see a need to gossip about me, unless you are a bitch. That is the only reason I can think of. A fat one.

Eclipse

2009-07-22T18:49:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I want to break out of his vacuum but I just can’t. The space demons keep calling me back into the void. I feel comfortable there!

Had Physics Test today. I think this time REALLY will fail. I'm only confident of one question. Complacent does harm. Raining so skip "Running"(YES!) Ended school at 1pm, due to O level Listening Comprehension. Wth. We were chased out of the classroom without prior notice. Didn't want to go for history extra lesson. I don't want to get scolding again. Anyway, don't go also scolding, must well don't go. We're NA, so don't use the express method to teach us. This marked the different between a NA student and an Express student. Since you said we are the worst in your eye, doesn't it show that you are a bad teacher? A good teacher will ensure that his student will do well. Seriously every lesson, scolding is irreplaceable. You always want us to 'critisize' others work. I don't think it really helped us. Everyone have their own mistakes. Only those who are better in History or bootlickers will give you to 'critisize'. I used to score well in History under Mr Ang, at least he know the right method to teach me. I understand better under him. Anyway, I just have study on my own or do better in SS and just switch off during his lesson. I never fail to fall asleep in his class. After much discussion with the rest, I made up my mind and went to eat and study with Adeline at Queenway Mac instead. I think the rest went for it. A scolding waiting for me tommorrow.

Solar eclipse shrouds Asia in cloak of darkness
VARANASI, India (AFP) - - The longest solar eclipse of the 21st century plunged millions across Asia into temporary darkness on Wednesday, triggering scenes of religious fervour, fear and excitement in India and China. Ancient superstition and modern commerce came together in what was likely to end up being the most watched eclipse in history, due to its path over Earth's most densely inhabited areas.A woman was killed in a stampede in the holy city of Varanasi where tens of thousands of devout Hindus had crowded the river Ganges at dawn.Police said the 80-year-old fainted in the crush to enter a temple near the banks of the river and suffocated, triggering panic. More than 20 people were injured. With Hindu priests conducting special prayers, the crowds in Varanasi cheered and then raised their arms in salutation as the sun re-emerged from behind the moon, before they took a spiritually purifying dip in the river's holy waters. A total solar eclipse usually occurs every 18 months or so, but Wednesday's spectacle was special for its maximum period of "totality" -- when the sun is wholly covered by the moon -- of six minutes and 39 seconds. Such a lengthy duration will not be matched until the year 2132.State-run China Central Television provided minute-by-minute coverage of what it dubbed "The Great Yangtze River Solar Eclipse" as the phenomenon cut a path along the river's drainage basin.Millions of people in areas of southwestern China enjoyed a clear line of sight, according to images broadcast on CCTV, but the view was obstructed along much of its path by cloudy weather. Shanghai viewers braved rain and overcast skies to witness the spectacle as darkness shrouded China's commercial hub at 9:36 am (0136 GMT)."It's like magic, the day turns into night in such a short period of time ... I have no idea where I am right now. It feels like a different world," said Chen Hong, a biotech company chief executive.Despite the weather, hotels along Shanghai's famed waterfront Bund packed in the customers with eclipse breakfast specials.Those who could afford it grabbed expensive seats on planes chartered by specialist travel agencies that promised extended views of the eclipse as they chased the shadow eastwards. The cone-shaped shadow, or umbra, created by the total eclipse first made landfall on the western Indian state of Gujarat shortly before 6:30 am (0100 GMT). It then raced across India and squeezed between Bangladesh and Nepal before engulfing most of Bhutan, traversing the Chinese mainland and slipping back out to sea off Shanghai. From there it moved across the islands of southern Japan and veered into the western Pacific. In Mumbai, hundreds of people who trekked up to the Nehru planetarium clutching eclipse sunglasses found themselves reaching for umbrellas and rain jackets instead as heavy overnight rain turned torrential. "We didn't want to watch it on television and we thought this would be the best place," said 19-year-old student Dwayne Fernandes. "We could've stayed in bed." Many did stay home, fearful of the effects of the lunar shadow which some believe can lead to birth defects in pregnant women."I was advised not to leave the house as the eclipse brings bad luck to you and your family," said Deepa Shrestha, a 25-year-old housemaid in Kathmandu. Superstition has always haunted the moment when Earth, moon and sun are perfectly aligned. The daytime extinction of the sun, the source of all life, is associated with war, famine, flood and the death or birth of rulers. The ancient Chinese blamed a sun-eating dragon. In Hindu mythology, the two demons Rahu and Ketu are said to "swallow" the sun during eclipses, snuffing out its light and causing food to become inedible and water undrinkable. Some Indian astrologers had issued predictions laden with gloom and foreboding, and a gynaecologist at a Delhi hospital said many expectant mothers scheduled for July 22 caesarian deliveries insisted on changing the date. The last total solar eclipse was on August 1 last year and also crossed China. The next will be on July 11, 2010, but will occur almost entirely over the South Pacific.

My schoolmates were crazy over it, when it strike 8.30am. LOL. They can't see anything cause it covered with the cloud. I shall watch it on Channel U, at 11.30pm.

Annoyed.

2009-07-21T22:31:00.007+08:00

I didn't say anything, doesn't mean I am fine with it?
Don't cross that line of limit.

Deprived

2009-07-20T19:04:00.004+08:00

Chanced upon Aunt. Chat with her. Gave me $30. ($10 each) Relatives kept giving us $10/$50, seriously doesn't help much. I never want to take cause it's better to depend on yourself than to ask for it. As in not the amount, it is like the saying goes "Why not teach him how to fish, than to give him the fish?" How many times you can afford to give every time you see us? I really seriously hope Dad and Mum can go work! Cousins, please find jobs for them as fast as possible. PLEASE! I never want to live til tomorrow to know what unexpected thing will happen. Gambling is the cause of my agony. I see money as first priority. Without money, we are nothing. Call me materialistic, yes, I am.. Face the reality. You won't be forever rich if you don't work hard for it.

Mughard!!!!!!

I want a better life.

It act as a motivator to me.

Anyway, had two test today.

Eng and POA.

Sleep to be a babe.

2009-07-19T16:16:00.009+08:00

Seoul garden for lunch.

Home Sweet Home.

Let the picture do the talking.

I am Tired + Full + Lazy + Busy

to blog.

Enjoy.

The disgusting pot.

(Prepared by Prisongal.)

The ice-cream float
made by me.
The ang mo besides me: 'COOL' when saw me "making" it.
Me: Smile:D

I niss this.
I used to scoop these in hub):
When I scoop it, it feels like I was back then.

Messy hair.

Fatty.

Piggy.

2009-07-17T19:57:00.008+08:00

I’ve never felt I’ve been valued by anyone. I’m just a waste of space that everyone ignores, like a ghost without a home.

Ohmy. I didn't do anything today. I was so tired after school, that I slept til now. I didn't do any homework and revision. This few day, I am always tired, don't know why? Headache and chest ache again): Anyway, I had Prelim Chinese oral in school. Lao shi said I improved a lot. Let's hope I will do better in N level Chinese oral.

900 people died of H1N1, everyone wear mask.
100 million died of AIDS, yet no one wear condom.

$$$$

2009-07-16T21:22:00.004+08:00

What’s the point in ever trying to be happy when the very pursuit of happiness is what makes you miserable.

School. Home. Bath. Study. Nap. Woke up by WJ's call. Forget what he said. Study again. Dinner. 13th, The Friday. Quite a porn and horror movie.

I want to buy these if only money isn't a problem):
Where can I find these?
Saw them online. Hope Singapore has!

Graffiti Hinge Wallet
(The type of wallet I am always eye-ing at.)

Dickies Monster Print Backpack

Sigh of relief

2009-07-15T20:47:00.004+08:00

School was quite slack. I had 3&1/2hours free period. (Released about 1 hour earlier than the rest cause of Oral.) I make use of 1&1/2hours reading Mahera's oral practice. Birthday girl said I am stupid for doing that.): Oral was okay, Reading was as usual, still not very fluent. Picture Description was fine, they didn't asked me questions. However, conversation was rather easy. The examiners asked me 4 questions but is on different topics. I haven't answered finish, they asked another. Which mean I talk very little? But I took more than 10 mins. I think I did like how I did for Prelim, which fare around 29/40. Let's hope that they asked me questions is to help me, not to harm me. I am not VERY nervous when I was waiting in the waiting room. I kept going to pee while waiting. I started to be VERY nervous when I sat at the seat outside the examination room cause birthday girl was not done. My heartbeat increased. However when I was inside there, I calmed down cause I don't think the teachers were 'scary'.

All the best for the rest!

I am quite tired after the oral, I don't know why. I only manged to do Eng letter writing, POA's GESSS P1 and finish Physics revision. I didn't touch on Chemistry today): I.Am.To.Finish.It.By.Tomorrow.

Ohmy.

2009-07-14T20:31:00.003+08:00

Random. Ugly.Me.
Alicia.Will.Make.It.For.Tomorrow.N.Level.English.Oral.

(?)

I.Feel.Like.Going.Out.):

Eyecandy.

2009-07-13T21:09:00.005+08:00

A new haircut.

(Believe?)

School. Study, Physics & Chemistry. Bride War.

Last Lap.

2009-07-12T13:18:00.006+08:00

2 more months to N level & I am still slacking away. Although I had started/been studying, but still I don't feel that it is enough. 15th June 2009-Eng Oral. I suck in oral for both languages): Motivation is highly wanted. I don't feel like studying History & Chemistry. I don't like these two subject, partly because of the teachers and also I don't know how to study them. I used to have good grades for History but now it fell as fast as a roller coaster. I no longer have the ability to study it. Chemistry, all along I just can't make it. So now, I am pinning high hopes on Physics, Math, SS & POA. I am taking Combined Science and Humanities so even if I score A1 for Physics and SS, there is no use cause my History and Chemistry will pull them down. I need to at least get a pass. I still have a long way to go, to even see my target: 8 points. Have I overestimate myself?

No more hiding who I am want to be.

2009-07-11T21:24:00.008+08:00

Woke up. Bath. Lunch. The Shopaholic.(Rated average.) Study (Done with SS and History.). Transformer 2.(Suck.) Dinner. Com.

I made the wrong choice ytd. If time can turn back, I will make the right choice. Is there?

I am a smokelike person. Taken from FB's quiz. Quite true.

You tend to hide your emotions. You are at a very low point in life. You almost seem to not want to go on anymore, to fade away into smoke, not exist. You feel alone in life. You feel as if nobody could ever understand you. But there is only one thing that you cling to in life: You want to belong, but you dont want to change. You want to be around people you want to have a reason to go on. You are sometimes envious of other people's seemingly perfect lives. If you want to have a seemingly perfect life, then you should start hanging around warm sunlike people, or friendly earthlike people, or tell your problems to an quiet listener moon person. And you always have a speck of hope inside of you. Even if you feel all hope is lost, hope is hard to fully kill. so nurture and try to see life through different eyes, and maybe it'll be a brighter world. Thanks for taking this quiz. I hope you enjoyed it, and I hope I have help you learn something about yourself.

Forsaken

Sometimes you wonder about this life... is it worth living for? Your experiences have tethered your heart, your woes weigh down on your soul. It is hard for you to fathom the reason behind the hardship... but somehow you find a way. Your deep understanding of pain results in an empathy for others who have experienced similar. You will be the last to judge someone for who they are and what they've been through. You put up walls to guard yourself; but when you let someone in, they are able to see what a deep and fantastic being you are.

Bufferfly.

2009-07-10T16:02:00.005+08:00

I am quite lazy to study today):
Shall study at night
Now buffering Love matters.
Watching online.
Ciao.

Edited.
Watch finish Love Matters. Now buffering The Shopaholic. Daddy asked me to watch a live show behind my block. I was like what? I went to see, Guess what I see? I saw a student couple intimate AT THE TOP OF THE CARPARK, (which is so open!) with their school uniform. The guy is wearing SHORT PANT, which mean LOWER SEC. White shirt & white pant? Concluded GESSS/QSS. Most probably is GESSS. Cause girl is wearing green skirt. They are lying down, french kissing and finger fucking? Sis shouted "Want do, go home and do." I think the guy heard and looked up, they stopped. The guy moved further back while the girl lay on him and they CONTINUED! WTF! I mean like if they really want to do it, why don't they go home and do? Or at least somewhere that is not so open. Sadly, I don't have a camera and my phone's camera can't zoom. If not, they will be up on STOMP! A disgrace to their school.

Pretence.

2009-07-09T20:23:00.005+08:00

我表面似乎痊癒了
某部分却像残废了
When problems arise, I tried to stay strong.
However, whenever I want to be much stronger, I can't.
In the end, I fall even badly.

H1N1 arrive in StMargaret.

Baby, stay strong.

Quoted from a blog.
My "paper" on friends are badly coloured.
(I guess.)

Friendship?
Someone used to told me this, "Everyone's life is like a piece of plain paper, in order to beautify it, we've colour and draw on it... but somehow not every colour can be matched with each others... and it's impossible that every piece of plain paper can be beautifully coloured."

Vice versa, I think it's the same logic when it comes to friendship. There are many kind of people in the society, some who're only out to prey on others, some who're are out to be jealous of others because of they can't stand people for who they're and what're are, some who're literally out there to just create chaos..... some who wants trying making people into their puppet.... and also some who're only out there to expand their society of friends.

When friends always get really close, majority of us will think that we really know them well, but in fact we don't. The best part is.... some of them whom you really know them inside out tried to deny the fact that they're not something which they're. They want to reform themselves into a complete different person so that people will never know their true personality. Whereby in some other cases, people are just literally stubborn... They continued to put up a show in front of everyone and thought that no one else will know, but the truth is we're watching how that silly person is going to continue and sink himself more into being a full fledge fool.

There are times where I'll have a thought in my mind such. "Why do I have friends who're like that?", I questioned and pondered myself.... Is it because of?

1) Heavens Will?
2) Just my bloody luck?
3) People trying to test my patience?
4) Or just a puddle of water which I've to pass by?

I asked myself repeatedly.... and today. I finally found my answer. In this world there're many different kind of people, they all existed to balance this world. There're always people who'd go against each other and there are some where they can never co-exist together... Yet funny enough, they're also some where they do become friends and slowly conflicts started to happen.

But looking at how a rabbit can never be friend with a chicken as their characteristic clashes... things goes naturally just like the water and the fire as well.... one is the element of starting a life while the other is the element that leads to destruction. Without fail, each will try to rule against the other naturally.

Alone.

2009-07-08T21:21:00.003+08:00

我沈默不代表我不痛
我不痛眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受安静忍受
我不懂　连我都不懂我

School. Mac. Home. Bath. Study. Now com.
Write til hand pain):
Leg pain too))):

Never wanted it,

2009-07-07T21:00:00.016+08:00

When I am affected by something, you then showered me with concern. Why do you have to wait til then? Soul mate, anyway thanks for being there when I needed someone. Deeply appreciated. You may said it is nothing, but it meant it a lot to me. REALLY. Through all these, I found out that guys made a better friend.They know how to advice you and never they will betray you. So far, I found none who had break my trust.

Failed my 2.4 again. I simply walked all the way. I hate running, so I am not going to retake AGAIN. Class til 5pm. Home. Dinner. Daddy cooked(: Although it is simple dishes, (L). Bath. Get down to work. Just finally finished what I planned:D

P/S: My leg muscle ache like ~!@#$%&*^%$#$!@#~ after running(walking.)

A hidden note

2009-07-06T18:49:00.007+08:00

A story of a girl, living in the lonely world.

SP. Lunch & study. Home. Study. Dinner. Com.

I might seem to have a lot of friends but not true friend. I don't wish to be crash down again so I won't share my inner self anymore. It may seemed like I am not willingly to, but the fact is I don't dare to. Wanted: A trusted listening ear who understand me.

Due to the H1N1, upper sec students need to bring food to school tomorrow for recess, to avoid overcrowding in the canteen. I have no idea what to bring. Sigh. Canteen food really suck so I didn't want to order for them. Can I have Mac delivery instead?

Bid Farewell.

2009-07-05T16:24:00.008+08:00

The hardest thing to let go is not looking back.

Done with what I am suppose to do.

Going to do POA.
Ciao

Born out, I fated to be alone, fated to be in a horrible twists. Crying, crying all alone. Loneliness lingers all things happened in illusions. My world has no lights and warmth. So cold, so confusing in my world. I don’t know what to do. But I just want to get out of this world. What I did was struggling, running all the way but the world look endlessly. It was trapping me in this world to suffer in this fate. It was so horrible in there. Nothing I could do. Helplessly I am tired. I sat down crying again. Nobody beside me, to care me. I am really tired I can’t run anymore but I am struggling with my body. Move! Move! I don’t want to be in this world. I lied down seeing the illusions patterns. Helping hands is all I needed to get out of that world. I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to be here so I closed my eyes sleep in the hope of light.

Ending.

2009-07-04T22:09:00.007+08:00

Te echo de menos
Te quiero con toda mi alma

Went to Sauke Sushi at Tiong for dinner. Lousy, don't have what I want): But I am still very full. I need to finish what I ought to do for the weekend, cause going out on Mon. Must make full use of Tmr. Going to wake up early for Tmr and Mon. REVISE!

Twice. Same party, same reasons but this time a different ending. It won't repeat. Never to take it seriously.

Idk.

2009-07-03T19:56:00.004+08:00

Reached school VERY early. Earliest in the year, I guess. Coincidentally saw Xiao gu at the bus stop so she lobang me as she was cabbing to somewhere near school. School ended early, 1pm. Stayed on to ask Ms Cheong things. Headed to Mac a late lunch. I've been eating Mac. Home. Slack. Bath. Work. Com.

I've been putting up a strong front. I tried hard not drop a single tear and not ponder over it. Yes, I did it. But, it is still unbearable. I really don't know how long I can take it anymore. I don't want to be affected. I'm at loss, what should I do? I don't wish to be hurt again. It isn't the first time. How? Tell me what to do.
God of hell, take me go out of this world filled with betrayal.

Betrayal.

2009-07-02T20:11:00.007+08:00

School.
Mac.
Home.
Bath.
POA from 5 pm - 8 plus.
Just had a first meal for the day.

It always happened when I wanted to trust them more, when I wanted to be closer with them. Although I know there is no such thing in such a world, but still I want to break that mindset, proving there is someone who is worth of it. However, they never failed to disappoint me. Blame on me being so naive. One after another, I am tired of it. Who is there for me? It always turned out to be one who aren't close to me. When I need them, they will appear and lend me a listening ear. They will advice me and I will feel much better. They seems to understand me more. Maybe we are of the same kind. Our character and background. Maybe I shouldn't step into that school that I doesn't belong to. Thanks to my mum, pushing into that trap. But at least I will gain more experience. Not the closer one know you inside out, but those who are out there. I pretended to be strong that I won't be affected by it, but still I once regarded them as a friend of mine. It still hurts. I am going to breakdown soon.

I doubts I have the power to influence someone.

Expected.

2009-07-01T18:58:00.008+08:00

School. Home. Bath. Study. Dinner. Com. TV soon.

I judges people by the impression they gave me. Doesn't mean you know them personally, you will know what exactly is going on in her mind. However the more closer you are with her, the more you don't know what she is thinking. Perfect? No one in this world is perfect. Impression determine whether I can accept you as friend. It is a right to choose my friend.

Before you know me, you should know that vulgarities are already part of my life. It express feeling. Maybe I am what you called uncouth? This marks the difference between 'upper class people' and 'lower class people.' I doesn't belong to the upper one, neither do I desire to be.

Friend is something I never know. It's not in my dictionary. Even more I can't accept one that "say" about me when they didn't even get the fact right. Whatever it is, after all it is my choice to choose my circle of people I want to mix with. What I mean that I have load of friends is I don't need someone that I don't like to be my friend. Since I don't even like her, why must I be two-faced and appeared to be okay with her? I don't need to pretend. I don't even need to have such a friend who is two-faced. I'm quite straightforward. I said whatever comes out into my mind. I don't care you friend with whoever, it is your choice anyway. I am not a coward so I dare to swear or comment about whoever I don't like. That is the impression they gave me. If they are unhappy about what I said, approach me. I dare to say they also comment about me, just that it is in the dark. What a coward! At least what I want to say, I said it right into their face. They will also meet one out there soon after they leave the sheltered shell under their parents. They are not related to me so I don't see a need to respect them or care whether their pride is badly hurt. I am a sadist. Emptiness filled in me. People hurt me even if I do nothing. This is life.

No trust. No matter how close we appeared to be, it doesn't seem to be. To whoever I talk, even to my closer one, I will retaliate. This is exactly what I am. This is me. As days go by, you know more about me 'personally'. It is your choice whether you want to continue our friendship. If you don't want, just let me know. I will leave the friendship. Seriously, do you even care about me? No. You are just treating me as nothing, not even as a friend. All these are just a label. A invisible wall that separate us. When there's a clique outing, where are Adeline and me? There won't be us. I know you would say that even if you asked me, I won't want to go. I don't want to put in a spot, cause I know she meant more to you than me. Even if we go, it is weird. I know you all rather her to go. In order not to have any further conflicts, I had decided I leave. Anyway, in the first place, I don't feel to be belong in the clique. It is the right choice.

Don't ask me to change. I don't want to be someone that is not me. I want to be myself. If you can't accept me for who I am, then our friendship end.

Unread.

2009-06-30T21:58:00.004+08:00

Set up printer and print my POA notes.
Anyway,
School. Mac. Home.
Bath. Study a bit. Tired.
Nap from 5pm to 8 plus.
A day gone with nothing to be done.

Oh ya,
I grained 2 kg!!!!
& I become shorter):
It's time for slim down,
I shall skip recess since the food sucks and
I got to save $.
I want to be like I was in Sec2.
I always don't eat,
and lose 2 kg.

When I hope to see you, I don't.
When I doesn't hope to see you, I do.

Emotional.

2009-06-29T20:37:00.003+08:00

Bye! 6 years.

Daddy threw Clarence's Barneys (except the small one.) away cause they are filled with flea. They started biting Clarence and he is full of bites. Daddy had no choice but to throw it away. Clarence saw it and went back into the room and started tearing. He's just like me don't want to let others know, suffer in silence. I know he can't take it. Emotional is in our genes. When he goes into his room again, he cried in silence again. I wonder how he going to get through the night. I know Daddy didn't mean it when Clarence sort of begged him not to throw. But for Clarence's benefit, Daddy is determined to throw. In my family, parents don't explain why they do some thing and Mummy sort of scolded Clarence. Poor boy. Sis promised to buy him a new one. But after all, it is the feeling not just the thing itself. He felt for it. He had it since he was 3 when Mummy bought for him as his birthday present. Cheer up, ah boy!

School was weird today. In the morning, the teachers stand at the gate. It looked like waiting for the arrival of VIP. (LOL) The temperate taking and etc. All thanks to H1N1. Had normal lesson. Chem, Math, 4 hour of Eng(Ohmy!), SS (Ms ng wasn't here. Shiok.) PT. Home. The new canteen food really suck to the ultimate. It tastes utterly horrible. Puke. How can we survive? It's good time to slim down^^

At last, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ADELINE CHUA.
Hope you like the piglet:D

Gone.

2009-06-28T15:21:00.005+08:00

Woke up quite early. Replied text. Continue to lie on bed. Heated up Zong zi. Don't know why ah ma made it and bring it my house. Had it for lunch. Wanted to slack for the day since it is the last day of the holiday. No more sleeping late. No more waking up late.

We're dirfting, aren't we? I can count the number of true friends I had with my finger. You are enjoying yourselves out there, that you forgotten I am waiting for you. My heart is filled with emptiness, how i wish it would stop pumping.

My heart ache again, chest in pain.

Moody.

2009-06-27T23:21:00.007+08:00

In the afternoon, I was almost done with my work and wanted to use the com but mum came back and wanted to watch shows online. She watched til now and I just got to use the com. Anyway, relative came over late afternoon. Had dinner together. Gathering again. I saw Ryan kor kor again after months, although it was awhile. I was rather shocked to see him. He said I grew taller(: I was rather dao when I saw him. Maybe cause I didn't really expected it although I already guess it right. Aunts were rather happy that cousin and him are back together, at least they are going out together. Hope they will be like they used to be soon.

Craving!!!

Soulmate.

2009-06-26T13:15:00.004+08:00

This holiday, I'm addicted into this show: 女人我最大. It's about looks, as in it teach you how to be pretty from head to toe, from make-up to clothing. What they use are quite cheap, although is in Taiwan currency. It is air on Channel 54, 12am-1am. Now school is reopening in 3 days time. I shall watch it on NatNatVip (Some online websites to watch show.)
It's time for me to change back my biological clock to school mode. Nowadays, I've been sleeping as late as 2am and waking up as late as 2pm. During holiday, I made sure I slept for 12 hours(: Yes, I admit I'm a pig. I like to sleep(: This is the only thing I like about holidays. It's time to change, if not I will have to do a lot of CWO. (As a punishment of late-coming in school.)
My maggie mee is ready, off to eat. (Sis don't want da bao for me): so I cooked maggie mee.)

TO 4/9: Bring Thermometer, Form, Chemistry textbook, Eng file and the following textbook. Lesson on Mon: Chem, Math, Eng, SS & MRT.

Pop icon Michael Jackson dead at 50

LOS ANGELES (AFP) - - Michael Jackson died on Thursday after suffering a cardiac arrest, sending shockwaves sweeping across the world and tributes pouring in for the tortured music icon revered as the "King of Pop."Jackson, 50, collapsed at his rented mansion in the exclusive Los Angeles neighborhood of Holmby Hills and was rushed to hospital by paramedics before being pronounced dead at 2:26 pm (2126 GMT).Jackson, one of the most influential figures in pop music history whose four-decade career included the highest-selling album of all-time, "Thriller," had been preparing for a concert comeback in London next month he had dubbed "the final curtain."News of Jackson's death triggered an outpouring of grief as shocked pop music superstars, foreign governments and devoted fans paid tribute to the troubled star who struggled to rebuild his career after a 2005 acquittal for child abuse.Los Angeles County Coroner's spokesman Lieutenant Fred Corral said an autopsy would likely be carried out on Friday and would not speculate on the exact cause of death.Jackson's brother Jermaine, the family's official spokesman, later revealed physicians had battled for more than an hour to revive the star after his arrival at the UCLA Medical Center before he was pronounced dead."Our family requests that the media please respect our privacy during this tough time," Jermaine Jackson said. "May Allah be with you, Michael, always."As the sun began to sink over Los Angeles, a coroner's office helicopter bearing Jackson's body took off from the UCLA Medical Center, where hundreds of media and fans had gathered throughout the day.Meanwhile police motorcycle riders surrounded Jackson's gated mansion as crowds of tourists and fans gathered, snapping photographs of the property's wrought iron gates.Pop diva Madonna was among dozens of celebrities who struggled to cope. "I can't stop crying over the sad news," the singer said in a statement. "The world has lost one of the greats, but his music will live on forever!"British Foreign Secretary David Miliband also posted his thoughts on micro-blogging site Twitter. "Never has one soared so high and yet dived so low. RIP Michael," Miliband wrote.Lana Brown, a 49-year-old tourist from Dallas, broke down in tears as she digested the news. "Right today I can't believe we might have lost the best entertainer this world has ever seen," she told AFP.Jackson's death came as the singer prepared to make a keenly anticipated concert comeback in London, his first series of shows in more than a decade and the first since his 2005 child molestation trial.However those concerts were thrown into doubt after Jackson pushed back the opening dates last month, although organizers insisted the delay was not linked to Jackson's health.Randy Phillips of concert backers AEG Live said at the time: "I would trade my body for his tomorrow. He's in fantastic shape."But Jackson attorney and family spokesman Brian Oxman said he had harbored concerns over the singer's condition, revealing that he had taking prescription medication as he prepared for his comeback.
Oxman compared Jackson's fate to the overdose death of Playboy centerfold Anna-Nicole Smith, voicing concern over "enablers" in his entourage."The people who have surrounded him have been enabling him... if you think that the case of Anna-Nicole Smith was an abuse, it was nothing to what we have seen in Michael Jackson's life," Oxman told CNN."When you warn people that this is what's going to happen and then it happens -- where there's smoke there's fire."
While Jackson ruled the charts and dazzled audiences with electric dance moves like the backwards "moonwalk" in the 1980s, his once-stellar career was overshadowed by his colorful public behavior, his startling physical transformation and multiple allegations of child abuse.Jackson lived as a virtual recluse following his 2005 acquittal on charges including child molestation and plotting to kidnap his young accuser.Despite his acquittal, the trial was a body blow from which the pop music superstar, who named his ranch for Peter Pan's "Neverland" of perpetual childhood and furnished it with Disney-inspired rides, struggled to recover.Four years later, Jackson was still worshipped by fans for revolutionizing music, dance and music videos at the peak of his success.The attention paid to him in recent years was less flattering, focusing on apparent cosmetic surgery -- which he denies -- his baby dangling antics and a decade of swirling child abuse allegations.Born on August 29, 1958, Jackson made his show business debut with four of his older brothers in the Jackson Five pop group, and went on to lead the stage clan with a piping soprano and dazzling dance moves.By 1969, the group had signed a contract with Motown Records, becoming one of the last great acts to emerge from the legendary label.The Jacksons produced seven platinum singles for Motown, selling over a million, and three multi-platinum albums, selling more than two million. They moved to CBS's Epic Records in 1976.Despite the early success, Jackson was to recall those years as unhappy and lonely ones. Eventually the family act broke up, as Jackson went solo.In 1979, Quincy Jones produced Jackson's first solo album for Epic, "Off the Wall," a huge disco-oriented success that sold 10 million copies.They teamed up again in 1982 for what would be Jackson's breakthrough album as a composer and co-producer, "Thriller," which became the top-selling album of all time, with sales exceeding 41 million.Jones reacted with shock after being informed of Jackson's death Thursday."I'm absolutely devastated at this news," he said. "I just don't have the words. Divinity brought our souls together and allowed us to do what we could do through the '80s," Jones said."To this day that music is played in every corner of the world, and the reason is because he had it all -- talent, grace, and professionalism. I've lost my little brother today and part of my soul has gone with him."

Wonder.

2009-06-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

Money, please drop from the sky.

Kisses.

2009-06-24T20:53:00.003+08:00

Didn't sleep well.
Dream after dream.
Forget what I exactly dream,
when I wake up.
I did all my assessment.
YAY(:

Strange.

2009-06-23T17:45:00.007+08:00

I stopped doing assessment book.
I do awhile then stop.
Sigh.
Motivation!!!!!!!

The version of Boy over flowers.

You look so cute here!!!!!!

Going dinner later at 8 plus after didi's tuition.
Mama and aunt's advance birthday dinner.
Back later.

4N9, bring chemistry textbook, thermometer and the letter that is posted to your house.

Back. Went to the same place (Henderson.) again cause they think is rather cheap. $100 plus for 14 people? Quite full..........

Weak.

2009-06-22T20:31:00.006+08:00

VIVO.
Shop.
Bought M)phosis slipper.
Watch Movie.
State of Play.
Dinner.
Home.

Photos.

A BAD new):
Schools to re-open as scheduled despite H1N1 situation
Posted : 22 Jun 2009 1823 hrs
Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan has said schools will re-open and the Asian Youth Games and National Day celebrations will carry on.

Flooding.

2009-06-21T14:47:00.009+08:00

-.-
I am lazy to do any work

Relatives came over,
went Henderson for dinner.
Celebration for Father's day.
After eating went market, slack.
Home.
Tmr = Havoc
Parents go cruise.
So I am free til 11plus at night.
Where should I go?????

Anyway, Click here if you want extension of School Holidays. Scroll down and look for "QUICK POLL" . And vote! Spread. Join us and help spread the word around to your friends! The team of lazy students of Singapore!

Photos.

[There is something in my mouth.]

Sorry, I was too bored.
So I started to camwhore
It's been a longgggg time.

Wtv.

2009-06-20T17:47:00.005+08:00

Did Chi. Eng. Physics. assessment.
But I am lazy to do POA notes):
I'm bored.
Text, anyone?
>.<
One more week of holiday):
Are we having another week of holiday?
They said cause got H1N1.
Really?????

Slut.

2009-06-19T17:12:00.003+08:00

Just did Chi and Physics N level Practice papers. I did the whole Physics paper less than 1/2 hour. I do too fast or the paper too easy? Lazy to do English. HAHA. Now going to do POA notes.

Happy Birthday, Asshole!

正当我睁开双眼踏入这个世界
妈妈给我生命现在让我自生自灭
这让我恐惧在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具
回想过去难道生命就是这样延续？
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
就像整个社会被人心笼罩着它也是黑的
我背着宿命的十字架
也渴望Power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
佛家说烦恼即是菩提我暂且不提
我倒是希望能够回到母体
老妈对不起我时常把你气得跺脚
你说你后悔当初没有把我堕掉
每当我放学回家放下那沉重的背包
家里空无一人只残留着你香水的味道
那时我知道你那天晚上又要加班
我打开冰箱拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐
老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家
我从睡梦中醒来只听到你们在吵架
我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试
老师他不喜欢我我也不喜欢老师
我讨厌穿制服我讨厌学校的制度
我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸讨厌被束缚
That's true
很多人不屑我的态度他们说我太cool
警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕
I don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己随便人家如何想我还是我
爱钱的女人只给凯子摸
不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多
金钱力量虽大却生不带来死不带走
紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手？
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸
当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省
铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象
刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象
仅有一寸短的铅笔写的是监狱风云
日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景
自由在他们眼里才是憧憬
放一把自制武器在枕头旁以防随时有人偷袭
有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情
有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集
有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息
有些人精神失常因为受不了打击
三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去
出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期
这也好一生中第一次感觉到幸福
但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚
我不知道接下来还有什么会发生
翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人
还记得某年无意间发现的照片
上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面
这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象
我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡
我抵抗胸口存在着不安及惶恐
我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
不论我走到天南不论我走到地北
不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪
It's kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money
外表好像要帮你却只是想帮他自己
笑容可掬的脸后面谁知道是个狼心狗肺
连朋友都能背叛因为只有名利合他口味
她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧
搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵
你可曾困惑在你身旁谁是敌是友
对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友
你可曾经历当你最需要帮助的时候
平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪
亲爱的神伟大的神
你可以怪我想法太过无知但我只是人
我不信人因为人也不信我
不要问我为什么我最多只能告诉你这就是我
生命像海浪一样有时高有时低
你是否告诉自己坚强渡过各种时期
我从命运的天台放眼却看不到星空
漆黑的天空压在头顶使我不得轻松
在我心中找不到一个安静的角落
我不能再沈睡下去良心彷佛在笑我
它在说：有几天几夜老妈曾经为你以泪洗面
老爸他只顾己见希望之火只见熄灭
我接起电话是老爸憔悴的声音
虽没见面却不难想像他当时的神情
刚听完他最近失业的消息
脑海里马上浮现祖母的话警告我一定要争气
我已经放弃所有哭的理由
因为我早就习惯冷漠活在无情的现实里头
人生要如何起头？改变要如何起手？
当活在泥沼中要如何才能金盆洗手？
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

Stares.

2009-06-18T19:12:00.003+08:00

Headed to Wistma with Adeline to collect my phone at around 1 . Luckily, I didn't wait long.What angered me is they didn't charge my phone. Over to Taka's MOS to eat lunch. Go meet sis at The Cathay. Study awhile. Went over to PS to have dinner. Trained home at 6 plus.

Annoyed.

2009-06-17T16:41:00.003+08:00

Did Chinese and Eng assessment half half only. It's very difficult. OMG. 1997 N level papers. No mood to do. Stomachaches and Headaches. The construction noise is driving me crazy. More noisy as relatives are at my house. Currently doing POA notes.

P/S: My phone is ready for collection. FINALLY.

Anti-social

2009-06-16T23:33:00.010+08:00

Wake up at 11 plus and prepared. Accompanied sis to photocopy and on the way find Tracy to take books. Home to take bag. Trained to Dover at 12 plus. Met Adeline, walked over to SP. Sis submitted form, headed to POPULAR at SP, bought some stationary. Had lunch at SP too. Trained to Dhoby Graut to meet sis's bf. Walked to The Cathay, to purchase "Drag me to hell." Because of the seat, we changed the timing to 5 plus. While waiting, accompanied Adeline over to Raffles City to buy her things. But no more. WALK WALK WALK. Back to The Cathay at 5. Waited and went in. Didi was freaking funny. He was so brave before watching the show. The movie haven't started, he started to be scared cause of the advertisement about the next horror movie that is coming out soon. Throughout the movie, he only steal some glance, if not he covered his head with my jacket. Aftermath, headed to Bugis for steamboat buffet dinner. I'm still bloated til now. Trained home at 10 plus.

Overall, the movie is quite expected, as in I can guess the story line. And I think it should be named disgusting movie then horror movie. The old lady is freaking sick!!!!!!

I was wearing a quite high heels. Throughout, I've been complaining how pain it was. I can't even walked properly and a number of people were staring at me. At M)phosis, YuBin wanted to buy a slipper for me. But I don't want cause I think it is a waste of money, so bear with it. Omg, I swear I never wear heels anymore. I wonder who wear heels, will not have blisters? Who can be a good soul and help me massage?

Tomorrow, I am so gonna to do all the assessment book and practice papers. No more laziness! 1 week plus to school reopen, and I did nothing except homework!!!!!!

P/S: Sorry, no photo taken as my phone is still under repair. Yes, I know it'd been long. They said Fri, the phone will done. Hope they really meant it, if not !@$#@%$%#^

Yearn

2009-06-15T18:31:00.003+08:00

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

I watched a number of conjoined twins on Youtube. Felt quite poor thing for them. Some got separated, some live their way with their twin. Sigh.

Because I'm Stupid.

2009-06-14T17:29:00.003+08:00

Because I am too stupid
I have no one besides you
You, who is looking at someone else
Dont you know how I felt?

There isnt me in your days
And not even having any remembrance
Me, who looking at you whom I am yearning for
Always shed tears

It is my happiness even to be looking at your back
You still dont know how I felt
In the end, you go past me

In the days where I miss you very much
In the days where I suffered the pains
I love you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
Missing for you alone yet again
Baby! I love you! Im waiting for you!

There isnt me in your days
And not even having any memories
I am looking at you whom I am yearning for
Making the memories on my own

Love is like a beautiful wound to me
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I am unable to laugh with you

In the days where I think of you a lot
In the days where my heart is cold and sad
I miss you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
Missing for you alone yet again
Baby! I love you! Im waiting for you!

Bye bye never say good bye
Though I am unable to hold you like this
I need you, I am unable to say anything, I want you, I wish for and wish for it again

In the days where I miss you a lot
In the days where it is very cold and sad
I love you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again

In the days where I think of you a lot
In the days where it is very cold and sad
I love you whirls near my mouth
Crying for you alone yet again
Missing for you alone yet again
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Pine.

2009-06-13T23:28:00.003+08:00

Town with cousin and bro. FOX, GUCCI, GUESS, etc. Still, nothing caught our eye. Headed to Bugis. Arcade, SHOP. FOX, TOPMAN/SHOP, etc. Over to Ilumo. Explore. I think Ilumo is just like the street, just that it is air conditioned. Went to street. Finally bought a dress. To Pastamania, had mussels and clams. Aftermath, went to uncle's house cause relatives were there. Had a chat. And home sweet home.

It seems like everyone, even you think that I will not make it through N level and end up in ITE. Not like I think that ITE is the end. But still, parents' mindset is outdated. They want their children to be the best of all. You lack of confidence in me. Since young, from EM3, NT, now ITE, you're always the same. Everytime I made it, it is just luck. You always look at my flaws, what about my capability? When I get into the tops, why don't you be top? / your class lousy ma. When I fail, can't you pass it? Whatever result I get, I never reach your expectation. I never heard your compliment, only more higher expectation. Even if I really end up in ITE, I won't waste your money anymore to carry on studying. I rather earn my own money. Why do I even need to care what people think of me? Am I defeated by how others looks or my incapability?

Irrecoverable.

2009-06-12T15:06:00.005+08:00

A controversial transgender man has given birth to his second child, a year after his daughter was born. Thomas Beatie delivered a healthy baby boy early on Tuesday morning, according to ABC News. His wife Nancy will breast-feed their son, as she did with their daughter Susan Juliette, who was born in Oregon in June last year. During his first pregnancy, Mr Beatie released a photograph of himself showing his pregnant belly and bearded face. He became known around the world as the "pregnant man" and was sent death threats and hate messages by people who disagreed with what he was doing. The 35-year-old said at the time: "I think that people will be shocked because no-one's ever heard of a man giving birth before. "I guess it's a shocking concept, but in this day and age that's possible. And it's happening now." Mr Beatie, who was born as Tracy Lagondino, underwent gender reassignment surgery and hormone treatment to become a man. He chose to keep his female reproductive organs but is legally recognised as a male. The couple decided he would bear their children because Mrs Beatie, 46, had already had a hysterectomy and was unable to conceive. After stopping his male hormone treatment, he became pregnant with donor sperm bought on the internet.

Guy should give birth. They will know how pain is it so they will think twice when they went flirting, causing girls to endure the pain of bearing a child.

SINGAPORE: Police are tracking down two Chinese men who are believed to be involved in the murder of an Indian man at Redhill Close on Tuesday evening. Police said they received a call at about 9.40pm that an injured man was lying at the open carpark of Blk 89, Redhill Close. The 46—year—old victim had stab wounds to his upper body, and was said to be involved in a fight with two Chinese men earlier on. He was sent to the Singapore General Hospital, but was pronounced dead at 11pm. Police have established the identities of the two suspects and are tracking them down.

My dad told me about this yesterday. He said one of the Chinese man is a uncle we know. It's hard to believe such thing was done by someone we know. This man helped my dad before. That time, he saw one bangala doing something to my dad's lorry. He ran to my house and told my dad. From this incident, he seemed to be a good guy. I don't really like him, finding him quite annoying. But now, he killed someone. Such things always happen in Redhill. Fights, kidnap and etc.

I want this dress.

Hero.

2009-06-11T19:29:00.003+08:00

Whole day do POA.
Theory and Practice Paper 2.

Time.

2009-06-10T19:13:00.005+08:00

Official school holiday. No more school(: I HAD to mug. (Omg, I had been telling myself from two weeks ago. But I am not doing it!!!!) Anyway, I was late of school, because I left my Ezlink at home. Went over to mac to buy something so that I had coins, but missed my bus. Reached school late, obviously. Went high and low to look for them. Finally found them. Two hours of POA flew quickly. Slacked to talk to cher. Then to history. (Boring!) Home to had late lunch. Aunties and cousins came over.......

I am a LEO WOMAN.
She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally tall or rather tall.I am not tall!): You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks she walk like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there is no one around her.Not really. She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it.I'm okay with cheap. I don't care about brands. After all, it just had to look good on me. Also do not buy cloths that do not reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange cloths and accessories.Ya, I like to be unique! Being different is what she loves.Yes! If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective about people she mingles with.T She's open minded,F by Kellice Chua! but yet she is not letting people get to close to her easily.T She likes sweet words and compliments, but not too much.Too much gives me goose bumps. She smiles with anyone,F but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader.F She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct.T She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough competition. She is a very proud person,F so do not do anything to challenge her confident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like an innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory,T so if you find her old photo albums with her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy. She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic. She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a plus.F, I don't goes for such thing -,- She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills.T, I want to come out poverty! She is a sport type and love sports.F, I hate to exercise. If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand, but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be surprise if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress.T If you do not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her. It's unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

T: True.
F: False.

Craving.

2009-06-09T19:25:00.003+08:00

I want MAC nugget!
I want KFC chicken!
I want Tom Yam!
I want Sakae Sushi!
I want Pastamania's mussels and clams prata!
I want school jap's mushroom soup!
I want seaweed!

I love doodling

2009-06-08T16:23:00.013+08:00

(Not by me!)

Mac for breakfast. I waited for Adeline for half and hour.(-.-') So she made up by treating me.(; School for POA lesson. Home to bathe. Trained to Novena. Novena for Eng remedial. Ate Mos for lunch. Take the wrong train, end up at Bugis. Trained back home. Home to rot.

Had a hard time to breathe on the train. I think that is no ventilation. Headache and heartache): Suddenly relapse, still feeling unwell):

My phone's away from me for 2 weeks):

For the reserved seat in the buses or train, Singaporeans treat it as nothing. They still sit. Not like others countries, the reserved seat is really meant for people who REALLY needs it. It is not only the youth but also the ADULT. Please set a good example for the young to follow! What is the point to complain when you don't even do it? Singaporeans are nothing but just a bunch of kaisu, kaisi, always complain, selfish and un-gracious people. If only Singaporean are more gracious, wouldn't Singapore be a better country?

Loyang Secondary School. It was rumoured that in the 4th floor girl’s toilet at the old block, it is haunted and that is why the lights are kept on for 24 hours. Those students who had helped out in the AVA room claimed to see a lady walking along the backstage.

Ngee Ann Polytechnic was rumoured to have a girl student died in one of the engineering workshop because her hair got stucked in some machine and screams can be heard from the workshop at night.

Tampines Secondary School was said to be haunted by the spirit of a girl whom was raped by construction workers during its construction days in the 1980s.

Hai Sing Secondary School had a mother Mary there whose statue will drip blood.

CHIJ Saint Josept Convent had rumours about why a cubicle is always locked. It was said that a girl was waiting for her parents to fetch her one day, while she got raped and thereafter hanged herself in one of the toilet.

Pei Dao Secondary School was famous for the smacking and hitting noise at night in the basketball court. The music room was also rumoured to be haunted with a piano playing by itself every night at 12am sharp.

Pasir Ris Crest had an indian construction worker committed suicide in the toilet in its construction days. It was rumoured that the toilet was locked eversince after students complained about seeing a man stabbing himself repeatedly in the stomach.

Queenstown Secondary School was famous for the tomb stone that was found in the field by students.

Bedok View Secondary School had a toilet next to the bio lab on the ground floor haunted by a long haired ghost obsessed with combing her hair in front of the mirror. A few girls went into the toilet and ran out screaming and crying while it was rumoured the principal went inside the toilet to scold the ghost.

Yuying Secondary had its teachers and principals seeing silhouettes of children running around the school compound when worked late. It was said that when the school was doing its upgrading work,construction workers quited one by one after witnessing strange occurrences.

Gan Eng Seng Secondary School had its 4th storey Art Class haunted to the point of the teachers wouldn’t dare to enter the room alone. The rooftop of the building was rumoured to live a singing lady whose voice could be heard in an art classroom.

Singapore Polytechnics had T1,T2,T3…..but no T13. A student committed suicide at one of the teaching block’s toilet after stabbing the lecturer ( the lecturer died too). Screams can be heard at night when part time students were having classes.

Haig Girls Secondary School used to be a place to hold POWs during WWII. There is an area within the school compound which has more than usual rate of accidents occurring. It seems many people would trip and fall while walking along the compound. Was rumoured that walking across the field diagonally cutting across field at night, you will be greeted by an old woman asking you to buy matchsticks from her.

Meiling Seconary School has a railway track behind its building. The school was moved to a temporary building they were building a new one. A broken hand was rumoured to be crawling somewhere in the technical lab from a student whose hand was saw off during lesson and bleed to death. At the old school in Bukit Merah, the toilet on the 5th floor was locked because it was haunted by a girl who hanged herself in the toilet.

Boonlay Secondary School had a pond in the middle of a science block with classes. It was said that if one look at the pond at night, there will be a strange face that will surface out of it.

Temasek Polytechnic was rumoured to have an Indian worker binding wire inside a pillar but a colleague pour cement inside the pillar burying him in the process and they ! only found out when the whole building was almost completed. It was rumoured that the body is still inside the pillar which is believed to be somewhere in Block 18.

ACS was rumoured to be haunted by a boy who jumped into the gears in the gear room of the clock tower. Students being possessed were common in the school.

In Temasek Polytechnic, Engine block corridors from Block 18 were so haunted that guards wouldn’t patrol that area. A famous story told by a guard was he saw a student at a locker as he was patrolling and as he make an U turn few minutes later, he found a piece of newspaper on the floor with that student’s face he just saw. Only problem is that student was killed by a sports car at the bus stop few months back.

Ngee Ann Polytechnic was rumoured to be built on burial ground. The slopes and hilly grounds is an indication of bunkers underneath.

Clementi Town Secondary School had its Home Econs and Science Lab haunted by a ghost whose head roll on the floor.

Tanjong Katong Secondary were said to be haunted at its studio. Band members staying the night were always disturbed while sleeping.

What about StMargaret? HAHA

Is love supposed to be happy or sad?

2009-06-07T14:56:00.006+08:00

I want to study, but I had no drives to. Who can help me? I wasted a week... Sleep. Com. TV. Go school. Sigh. If I waste this holiday, I won't have any time to revise for N. When I sat down on my study table, with the mindset to revise, I will switch off automatically. I think I need to study outside so that I will study what I had bought out. Sigh. Rawr. I don't dare to ask parents whether I can go out, so I ended up rejecting friends' offer. Sorry, I will make up for it.

I wrote your name on the sand.

2009-06-06T18:34:00.004+08:00

Finish all my homework!(: And I revise my chemistry. (Surprisingly?)

Illusion

2009-06-05T14:45:00.004+08:00

I love this pic!

I call you up whenever things go wrong.
You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.
I can't believe it took me quite so long.
To take the forbidden step.
Is this something that I might regret?

Nothing ventured nothing gained.
A lonely heart that can't be tamed.
I'm hoping that you feel the same.
This is something that I can't forget.

I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

Now I know that we were close before.
I'm glad I realised I need you so much more.
And I don't care what everyone will say.
It's about you and me.
And we'll never be the same again.

Night and day.
Black beach sand to red clay.
The US to UK, NYC to LA.
From sidewalks to highways.
See it'll never be the same again.
What I'm sayin'
My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.

But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.
Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.

But wait.
A fine line's between fate and destiny.
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.

And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.

It's been long since we exchange words. Why do you came back? But I am NOT shaken, I guess? Read between the words, let us know each other more in depth.

Sup

2009-06-04T14:51:00.014+08:00

Mac breakfast
Mac lunch

Tomorrow last day yet I haven't see what I've been waiting for.
Sobs):
Stupid Sony ericsson.
Take so long to fix my phone):
(1 week and 4 days!)
I want my phoney!
I want my music!

Dinner at tua.
(Tue.)

Lao Bei.

Ah Ji.

Lim Pei.

Ah boy.
So cute.
Years ago....

Currently....

Sisters.

Server.

Sincere eye?
Doubts so.

How much time
Has passed since you said goodbye
Got your message today
Asking how am I
When I'm doing just fine
To admit the truth hasn't crossed my mind
All I needed was some time
Was it always this strong
I remember all

How I cried
The night that you said goodbye
You expected me to die
But I made a brand new start
And got on with my life
I did what I had to do
To get myself over you
I'm not falling apart
You underestimate the condition of my heart

There was a time
You were every breath of mine
I was ready to give the rest of my life
(but you walked away)
And now you think that you could walk right back into my life
Like nothing happened and I
I wont put up a fight
No
You left me alone
I wanna know where were you

I think you said all that you need to say
Cause its not gonna matter anyway
Am I getting through to you
Ive heard it all before
And now you've changed your mind
You lost you're only chance when you said goodbye
I wanna know where were you when I cried

Hyphotic Spell.

2009-06-02T16:19:00.009+08:00

Yesterday,I was too bored so read my old blog. Found it quite emo. The fact that I failed Eng, but I still can blog well. HAHA. Anyway, went tua. Stayed til 12 plus. Mama asked me to ask cause I failed MYE. Ah pek said 'I had the abilities to improve, but didn't. Should be able improve better for N.' (Felt much better after listening.) Home. Bathe, bed at 1 plus. Didn't even waited for hair to dry. HAHA. Was too tired. Surprisingly, I was able to wake up for school. Met them for mac breakfast(Adeline put us aeroplanes). School. First period was Math. I've no idea why Ms Lim wasn't in class so slacked all the way. English. Did practice paper, starting to feel sleepy. Next lesson was History(2 hours!). Oh my god, I was struggling hard to stay awake, regardless of the frequent yawns and dozing off. I started to stand up and beating myself with a pen cause there was no one entertaining me. My scandal was absent, I became loner in history): Finally, the most tedious lesson was over. Over to serene to get Girlfr's ice cream. Aftermath, to Conco(?) for lunch. Back to mac to do some study. Thankfully, Adeline's mum sent me home.

Again, my stand (Trust nobody) was proven. Apparently, I don't think that in a clique is a good thing. After all, internal conflicts still happens. Everyone got their flaws and the bad thing is everyone gossip. Or is just only applies to girls? That's the bad thing about girls' school, I guess. Sometimes I wonder, will there be a day that I go into the class and had no one to call as my friend? Sigh. Why are friendship so complicated?

P/S: I am in the seventh place in the whole 4na for math(: Yay! From 20 plus to seventh! But Chinese, my name no longer there):

Promises.

2009-06-01T14:21:00.002+08:00

Got up on the wrong side of life today.

Starving.

2009-05-31T18:01:00.004+08:00

Home at 1 + am. Straight bathe, jumped into my cozy bed. Within second, bye to LALA land. Woke up at 12+pm. TV(For 4 hours!) Bathe. Com. I'm hungry. What should I eat? I ate a Zong Zi for the whole day. Sigh. Work not done. Okay, I've decided. I shall start mugging on tue. Gonna stay in school after lesson and mug. I am easily distracted when I study at home and always have this mindset to do it later):

Enlighten.

2009-05-30T18:25:00.005+08:00

Morning 10 plus went to xin tua.
Home and use com.
Lunch.
Do some holiday assignment.
Later will be going over again.
These few days had been eating zong zi.
FATS FATS FATS.

Expected.

2009-05-29T15:38:00.003+08:00

Got back the report book.

Holidays had started, I guess. Sadly, I have a week of lesson cause of N level. I seriously don't understand the school. Instead of letting us to have intensive lesson, they let us wasted a week in school doing nothing expect doing 'I love SMSS'. Express are having their intensive. What about us? Please use your brain. N level come first, shouldn't we have it too? Their mindset is we will make it through sec5. But this year, it is the different criteria to promote. Doesn't mean the seniors did it, we will did it too. Sigh, forget it. We had already wasted it. I've been wanting to do my holiday assignment, but I don't feel like. OMG. I'm procrastinating. I want to do well and don't wish to waste off my holiday. I need to start doing it. If not, I won't have time to revise and do well for N. If I flunk it, it will be the last time I wear school uniform when I collect the result. First week of the holiday, I'm busy with lessons in school & xin tua. Xin tua will be starting tommorrow.

Disturbing.

2009-05-28T19:36:00.002+08:00

Overslept.
Pon school.

Trust.

2009-05-27T18:49:00.008+08:00

School. Had English Oral. Quite good I guess. First time no question from the teacher. Had a good talk with Mrs Karen. Not the quantity but the quality. Bused to IKEA. Had a thrashing from the bus driver. He's such a pain in the ass. Scolded me cause I never bring Ez-link!?! If not Adeline, I had scolded him !@#$. Had lunch and fun with them. Ah ma's house or should said uncles' house): Find cousin. Had one donut, never eat the sushi as I was still full. Had been eating a lot these day. Ate roti john and mushroom prata ytd for supper(!) Accompanied cousin to had her hair trimmed, under my block. Then she accompanied me and sis to go Blk 78 to trim ours hair. Home.

What is wrong with adults these days? Everything and anything we do also get a thrashing. We are not born to be scolded by you for nothing. Serves you right, for being a bus driver. Curse you drive the bus forever and also get all the disease since H1N1 flu had arrived in Singapore. Not like I never pay for my fare? I did! So what I never bring my Ez-link? I asked my sis to top up the card, so I never bring! Is there a problem? Even if I left it at home, is it a crime? & I did not roll my eyes at you! Don't accuse me. I never even scolded you. What I only said is I never bring. Some adults also never bring, why don't we get to see them get scolded? Just because I am a teenager wearing the school uniform, doesn't give you any rights to scold me for nothing! TIB932T is his bus plate number. He is a middle aged Chinese man. Complain him to give a good reputation for Singapore to foreigners. With such a attitude, how do you serve others patrons? What a disgrace to SMRT!

Singapore confirms first case of H1N1
(I see it coming!)
SINGAPORE: Singapore has confirmed its first case of Influenza A (H1N1).The patient, a 22—year—old Singapore Management University student, is currently being treated at the Communicable Disease Centre at Tan Tock Seng Hospital (TTSH) and is in stable condition.The Singaporean woman was in New York from May 14—24. She arrived back in Singapore from New York on SQ25 on 26 May at 6.30am. She was seated at Row 55. She began to develop a cough while onboard. She passed the thermal scanner uneventfully as she did not have fever then. Later in the morning, she consulted a GP who decided to send her to TTSH via a 993 ambulance, given her travel history. She was immediately admitted for testing. Laboratory confirmation of her infection was made by midnight of 26 May. The patient has been vigilant in monitoring her own condition and had sought immediate medical attention once she realized that she was unwell. Her attending GP, through his quick response in activating the 993 ambulance for the patient, had also helped to minimize the spread of infection from this case. The Health Ministry says it has initiated contact tracing of her close contacts. They will be quarantined and provided with antiviral prophylaxis. Passengers who had travelled in the same flight and were seated in rows 52 to 58 are urged to call the hotline at 1800—333 9999 to enable the MOH to check on their health condition. The MOH adds that all medical practitioners and healthcare institutions should continue to be vigilant to suspect cases. Singapore will continue with temperature screening for passengers entering Singapore at all checkpoints (land, sea and air). All passengers passing through or entering Singapore are given Health Alert Notices on board their flights, advising them to monitor their own health if they have been to affected areas and to seek medical attention immediately if they are not well. Singaporeans are reminded to maintain high standards of personal hygiene. This means covering your nose and mouth with a tissue when you sneeze or cough, and washing your hand frequently with soap and water, especially after contact with respiratory secretions, for example, after sneezing and coughing.Everyone also needs to be socially responsible. This means staying home and avoiding crowded places (including trains, buses, offices), putting on a surgical mask and seeing a doctor if you have flu symptoms. MOH advises those who travelled to affected areas to closely monitor their health and seek treatment as soon as possible should they develop symptoms. Members of the public are also advised to exercise caution over travel to affected areas. In the event that travel is unavoidable, the public is advised to take precautionary measures such as avoiding crowded areas and maintaining high standards of personal hygiene at all times. However, if you are unwell with fever and cough but have no travel history to affected areas, you are also advised to see a doctor and stay at home. MOH is monitoring the situation closely and will update the public should there be any new developments.

Some overdue photos.
Affair

Adeline

Girlfr.

No encouragement, only high expectation.

2009-05-26T17:03:00.005+08:00

Chemistry: 27/50 (Finally, I pass!)
Paper1: 13/20
Paper2: 14/30

English: 55/140 (_l_)
Paper1: 31/60
Paper2: 24/80

Chinese: 66.5/100
Paper1: 19.5/35
Paper2: 47/60 (Top, win AL one mark. LOL.)
Listening Comprehension: 18/20

POA: 47.5/100 ):
Paper1: 18/40
Paper2: 29.5/60

Overall, I think fail Eng, POA & Combined Humanities.

I'm so stupid to tell you the grades. I already knew that you only care about Eng. So what Eng is the most important subject? Do you even think I want to fail it?

Blazing hot.

2009-05-25T17:50:00.009+08:00

It’s rather a hot day. The outcome of my “Hard Work”, sigh. For some subjects, I expected to fare badly. But still, the only the subject that I pinned high hope for, disappointed me

Combined Humanities: 48/50

History: 23/50

SBQ: 11/25

SEQ: 12/25

Social Studies: 25/50

SBQ: 15/25 (Wow!)

SEQ: 10/25 (Suck!!!!!)

Physics: 31.5/50

Paper1:13/20

Paper2: 18.5/30 (Careless: 4 marks)
Math: 113/140

Paper1: 65/80 (Careless: 5 marks)

Paper2: 48/60

Math is the only subject I know I can score well. I want a high A1. Now, I got 5 marks careless. What I am disappointed is, I know how to do but just careless. Maybe I thought I can do it, so I didn't really study. Same applies to Physics and Social Studies. I hope I can do much better in Prelims as well as N level.

ALICIA ANG, BUCK UP! This is just a wake up call. You got to mug hard during the holiday, if you want to achieve your target!

After school, bused to Wisma. Send phone to repair. Trained to Liang Court. Ate Junk food. Cabbed home.

Omg, this is very weird. On the way to Wisma, Affair was telling us about her incident on the bus. She fell down on the stair in the double deck bus. When I got the bus, I skipped a step and fell down. Wth! When we always talked about accident, I will end up getting it. That day, when we went IKEA. I sat on the railing at the school's bus stop. Adeline told others about that time I dropped my phone into the pool. Here comes the bug, I want to jump down. Then I dropped my wallet into the drain. Wtf! Luckily, the drain was not flooded.

Lie.

2009-05-24T16:48:00.005+08:00

It's time to face the reality.

Yesterday evening,
relatives came over for cousins' birthday.
Just had a cake and some catch on.
Later on, went for dinner.
The same place where we had Mother's celebration.
I wasn't hungry cause I ate a bit before that.
As I thought I was hungry,
but it was stomachache.
I did not ate dinner in the end.

Overdue photo.
Taken in IKEA.

Never learn.

2009-05-23T14:04:00.007+08:00

One won't cherish the chances given. Come on, I learnt it through many painful lessons. Despite forgiving and forgetting them, the same old thing will happen again. A leopard never change it spots. Call me stubborn. Yes, I am. I rather be alone than to be hurt again. I don't seek for your understanding. No one understand me cause you aren't me. The one person that you wasn't expecting to ever let you down, will let you down. Everything was simple, but we looked it in a complicating way.

Hey, you bitch!

2009-05-22T17:32:00.002+08:00

School. Ikea. Tiong Park. Home

Law of Attraction

Ask
Believe
Receive

Bored.

2009-05-21T18:12:00.003+08:00

Let it be.

2009-05-20T16:09:00.004+08:00

School, Vivo, Home
Next week get back papers.
(I want my papers!!!!!!)
Post exam activities.
(I so (L) SMSS!)

Girls, please don't quarrel because of me. I don't want to see things getting worse. No use persuading me, I won't give in. I already reached the stage that I don't wish to explain further. It's pointless. Things won't get anything better. Just let it be. Thanks for making the effort but there's no use of it. Adeline, thanks for making me feel better.

What's wrong with me? I'm really sick of everything. Insomnia for days after MYE. Mood unstable. No longer have the excitement to go out.

Making a mountain out of a molehill.

2009-05-19T12:38:00.014+08:00

Doesn't they?
......

娛樂百分百 2009-05-13 pt.1/5 LIVE

娛樂百分百 2009-05-13 pt.2/5 LIVE

OMG! He looked so tired!

1st Article

Show Lo, badly affected by the recent "online dating scandal", got emotional and cried when he was hosting a variety show on Wednesday.
After a Hong Kong netizen named "Fanny" exposed her online relationship with the celebrity, three other female models also claimed that the latter had taken the initiative in befriending them, resulting in a series of reports that portrayed Lo as an "online player". Agitated by the scandal, Lo broke down when he spoke of this scandal on the variety show he was hosting.
According to him, he was just making friends sincerely and did not understand why he was portrayed as a "player". The Taiwanese media reported the scandal at great length and netizens criticized him for creating an illusive healthy image as a fae of his true self. Lo has denied all accusations.
"I am who I am. I tell jokes and sometimes dirty ones but all just for show effect."
Lo described himself as a tenacious cockroach that will never be defeated. "I am a cockroach, never beaten. If someone is out to bring me down, I'll have to apologize to you. You can't do it. I am unbeatable."
This was seen as a provocative statement targeted at the media, Lo's manager clarified that the artiste was just annoyed with the media for magnifying the most insignificant matters. He was overly depressed with the negative press but never meant to offend the reporters.

2nd Article

A 22-year-old girl from Hong Kong claimed to have dated Taiwanese singer Show Lo for nearly two months and has even provided online chat records and photos to a magazine, which reported the claim.
The girl, who is known as Fanny, was reported to have posted webcam images of Lo on her blog, and had accused Lo of "betrayal". Responding to the scandalous accusation, Lo admitted to have exchanged conversations with Fanny online, amidst suspicion that he might have fallen into a trap.
Fanny, who was said to look like Taiwanese singer Selina, sent 16 pages of online conversation content and some text messages, that Lo had sent to her, to a Hong Kong magazine. In addition, Fanny exposed the details of their online affair through web conversations, phone calls and text messages for the past two months.
Fanny revealed that she got to know Lo through Facebook, where Lo added her as a friend after looking at her display picture. After a few exchanges on the social network website, they exchanged MSN addresses. The young girl said that Lo appeared to be quite liberal on their very first conversation; he even mentioned that he was "very good at it". When being asked what he was good at, Lo replied in subtlety that "he could bring her to meet Jesus".
Although without any evidence, Fanny claimed that she has been to Lo's house. The text messages that were exposed contained sweet nothings such as "I missed you today! I'm back!" and "I will have to bite you till you scream for help!"
Thinking that Lo was serious about their relationship, Fanny later discovered that Lo had other girls on his network, and that she was only one of the flings he had. She started to feel foolish to have been finding excuses for Lo for the lack of attention for her, and believed him when he said he was too busy with work.
On the other hand, Lo was shocked to hear about the accusation and expressed that this may have been a trap. Lo told the media that the girl had spent almost a month gaining his trust, and asked Lo to switch on his webcam for identity verification. The girl had used seductive words to lure him into switching on his web cam, little did he expect the web shot to be saved and published. Lo's record company reproached Fanny for being low handed, trying just to gain fame through this incident.

His Blog: http://www.ilovesuper.com/blog/index.php?blogId=2

Seriously, those people are too over. After all, Show Luo is still a human being who leads a normal life like us. Doesn't mean he is a star, he can't make friend with others? With the advanced technology, everyone is free to make friends in the cyper world. Why does those people making a big fuss over it? It happened almost everyday but I don't see them on the news. Just because he is star? Stars also lead a normal life. I don't think Show should apologise. It's not even his fault. Making new friend is wrong? Ridiculous. He should sue that online friend instead. The person should be happy to have Show Luo as her friend then to back stab him. Show Luo's two sentences: "I am who I am." & "I am unbeatable." I (L) these two sentences. Luo Zi Xiang, don't care about those people. They are just want to have their sales of newspaper or magazines go up. Whoever believe in that, had no brain of their own. They just want to bring you down, prove them wrong by standing strong. They are jealous of your success. Heck their nonsense. Jia You! I like your hosting! (L)

Limelight.

2009-05-18T21:36:00.005+08:00

Met Adeline at Mrt station at 3 plus.
Was late to meet the rest.
1 hour.
The Cathay.
While waiting for the show,
Adeline and I became paparazzi.
Took a lot of others unglamorous photo,
with Delia and Andreas' camera.
Was rather tired running around the Cathay.
(Catching their actions)
I think we are the spotlight.
At first, it was quite quiet.
We came, it become nosier.
& Finally,
watched The Uninvited.
Was rather scary,
the storyline was unexpected.
Screamed til no voice.
Dinner at MOS(PS)
The service is like shit.
Adeline's soup was served very late.
Delia was peeved that she kept going to the counter.
The person diao and Tsk us when he walked past.
&scolded us for making a lot of noise.
(We're not the only one who were talking.)
Anyway, had fun.
Laugh like mad.
OMG!
Lobang Affair's cab with her, Asshole and Adeline
home at 8 plus.
(Thanks!)
Photo will be post at Andrea's blog.

Out of my mind.

2009-05-17T14:30:00.002+08:00

Just hold on.

Never.

2009-05-16T14:05:00.011+08:00

Take me away.

That's my principle of life.
You won't understand.

Going out is a pain. Where to go. What to do. Budget outing.

Should I change my blogskin? I found a cute one but doesn't suit me. & I am rather lazy to change. I am lazy to do anything including using my brain after MYE. That explained why the recent post are rather short. Sleep. Eat. Com. Tv. June study again.

Crap.

2009-05-15T14:33:00.004+08:00

Restaurant City.

Touch my heart.

2009-05-14T22:18:00.002+08:00

Eliot was born with an undeveloped lung, a heart with a hole in it and DNA that placed faulty information into each and every cell of his body. .
The boy in the video lived for 99 days. He really touched my heart. We should treasure our life more now. He struggled to live in this world, not wanting to give up. Well done! His parents are very noble.

To know more:
www.ninetynineballoons.com/
theatypicallife.com/

It's over.

2009-05-14T11:14:00.004+08:00

MYE is finally over. Mixed feeling. Wanting to know how I fare but also don't wish to face the reality. After MYE, I am on leave til wed. HAHA. Anyway, went serene to have MAC breakfast. 3 consecutive days. I am going to be fat):

I should considered quite fortunate to have MOE & St Margaret financially sponsoring me in my study. Free new textbook, Full Waive of N level fee, monthly school fee and miscellaneous fee. Now they are giving me new uniforms, PE attire, socks and shoes.(It's time for me to change to new ones.) With them, my parents' financial burden are lighten. My dad kept telling me that I should be thankful towards them and in future do something back to the society to repay their kindness. I won't disappoint them, I will do well in my N's and later in life. Not only them, other family's relatives are helping us. My cousin want us (sis and me) to have what others have. She will buy all the clothes, shoes, and whatever we want. Although she dotes us a lot, I know we cannot kept spending on her. My family's financial situation is indescribable. No one even the family will know how bad it is and what holds for us in future. Every time, I wonder why I can't be like any other teenagers who can buy whatever without worrying about money. When can I be carefree? When can I buy whatever I want? When can my parents stop worrying about money? When they can enjoy the life? All these will end when I grow up with a degree and earns thousands salary! That day soon no longer a dream, but reality.

Unease-able.

2009-05-13T19:55:00.007+08:00

Math Paper 1 was rather easy.

Went Serene and had MAC breakfast.
Slacked.

HAHA
We always do such things.
This time round, add the sauce with the creamer on hotcakes.
Adeline wasted one hotcake.
I already told her she can't possibly finish it.

The end product,

With some orange juice?

!
You want?

Went TOWN.
I saw a wallet I've been eye-ing on.
& It's so much cheaper than the one I bought.
The one I eye-ing > $17.90
The one bought > $ 39.90
wtf.
The minute I saw it,
I kept complaining to adeline.
(Til I reached my stop.
From City hall to Redhill)
HEHE.
OMG.
I reallyyyyyy love it.
I reallyyyyyy regretted on buying mine.
))))):

Run, adeline!

That's is fatter!

Suck his butt.

Home.
Watched show til 7 plus.
Bathed.
OMG!
Haven't started on POA's revision :0
LAST PAPER!!!!

Straight.

2009-05-12T12:04:00.006+08:00

The bus I took this morning, the whole bus, I am the only passenger. That's so scary! After NE quiz, went Mac's breakfast with Adeline and Geraldine. Yummy. Hotcakes. It's longgggg time since I ate it. As usual, can't finish it. Slacked. Home.

I pass my POA paper. WL. Not fully complete, pass. What if I complete? ): Wasted. Although is just pass, I'm satisfied cause I didn't finished the paper. Lucky? Gonna study harder for Paper one which on thurs, the last day of mye(: Tmr Math paper one. Gonna run through the formula again.

Grant me.....

2009-05-11T14:51:00.011+08:00

I want these.
I want go Taiwan.
I want all these dresses.
(Click on them to enlarge.)

Mother's Day celebration.

2009-05-10T23:45:00.008+08:00

Just came back from Aunt's house. The buffet seems to be for 50 +++ people. We only got 20? Cannot finish, end up, everyone take away. LOL. Drank quite abit. Now head !@#$%

Photos.
Didi

He look like Ah Wang.
hehe,

The spread of buffet.

(My favourite soup!)
I drank 10 bowls?
for the 6 hours there?

Curry Chicken

Clayfish?

Vegetables.

Fish and I-don't-know.

Prawn and (?)

Sis's favourite dessert.

Sis & Gina

Me & Gina.

In the lift to slack,

Three of us.

The pool.

& I rule that? -,=

*All the picture, I looked !@#%^&*

Never.

2009-05-10T16:55:00.002+08:00

Don't ask me to do it anymore.
2 more years.......

Currently at Aunt's house.

Mother's Day celebration.

2009-05-09T23:09:00.008+08:00

Just watch finish To Get Her. It's the last episode. The ending is expected. Went for dinner, sort of a Mother Day Celebration. Tomorrow going over Aunt's house for mother day too.

Restaurant somewhere at Havelock Road.

while waiting,

Dishes are:

Tofu.

Deer Meat.

Broccoli.

Curry Fish head(My favourite.)

After we ate.

All these cost:

Daddy said worth of it, especially the curry fish head. It's only twenty! It's is very big! We're quite healthy, we WALKED home!!!!!

Badly

2009-05-09T13:04:00.002+08:00

Unnoticeable

2009-05-08T12:36:00.002+08:00

Left with Math Paper 1 and POA Paper 1
Physics is quite disappointing. I know I can do MUCH better, but sigh......

I never know I meant so much to you.

Worse still.

2009-05-07T13:08:00.001+08:00

I'm so gonna fail POA paper 2 (Badly!) & Chemistry!):

Unknown.

2009-05-06T12:22:00.005+08:00

Went school today, after making my temperate go down. Feeling much better after all the medication. Wake up at 5 to bathe and try to read through the math formula, was rather tired to read yesterday night. Math paper two was rather easy, only don't know how to 1 question. So I target for 40/50. Hope paper one will be the same. Tomorrow POA and Chemistry. Need to study!

Unwanted

2009-05-05T22:09:00.006+08:00

I think I screwed SS and Eng cause I felt very uncomfortable doing the papers. There goes my target for SS. Down with fever, flu, sore throat.): Went to the doc. Waited for ages. He gave me two days MC. But I want to go school for MATH exam tomorrow! ): Should I? I'm trying to make my temperate to go down so that I won't be send home tomorrow. Cousin said if they found out I sick and still go school, they might sue me cause I might infect others. -,- Sigh. I shall see if I am fit to go school tomorrow morning!

To Jasmine & YL, thanks for helping me scold back the spammers. I think we should ignore them. Cause they are just two cowards who only know how to act big in front of the computer. We should not give them the attention they want.
To you, I'm living for myself. I don't need to be accountable to you with my life. Don't visit my blog if you hate me. I don't think I need to entertain to two people that had no life and bring myself low with these type of people. This is my blog, I have the right to post whatever picture I want. I am going to ignore you. A waste of time to entertain you two at the crucial period of my life. I rather spend my time studying hard for my papers and get good grades.

To my dearest long lost friend, LIM XIN YING,
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY. Although we had drifted far after we went to separate secondary school, you're always miss by me. I miss the time we had in primary school. How I wish time can stop there. It's been years since we had last chat. We have lots to catch on, maybe after the MYE. No matter what, you hold a special place in my heart. With you, I'd start to believe there might be a high possibilities to have best friend forever. I am very contented that you still treat me as a best friends after a long time. I still keep the letters we wrote. It really touched my heart when I read it again. I never knew I had such a great friend like you. Thanks to it, I had a urge to text you again to wish you happy birthday and to tell you what I feel. If not, I never knew what I am to you in your heart, whether you still treat with as best friend. I hope that you had enjoyed your day. All the best for your out coming papers and your O's level. 8 years of friendship and is still counting on. Go out soon!
(Don't forget my birthday again(: 06/08!)
Love,
your best friend
Alicia Ang.