Betrayal.

School.
Mac.
Home.
Bath.
POA from 5 pm - 8 plus.
Just had a first meal for the day.

It always happened when I wanted to trust them more, when I wanted to be closer with them. Although I know there is no such thing in such a world, but still I want to break that mindset, proving there is someone who is worth of it. However, they never failed to disappoint me. Blame on me being so naive. One after another, I am tired of it. Who is there for me? It always turned out to be one who aren't close to me. When I need them, they will appear and lend me a listening ear. They will advice me and I will feel much better. They seems to understand me more. Maybe we are of the same kind. Our character and background. Maybe I shouldn't step into that school that I doesn't belong to. Thanks to my mum, pushing into that trap. But at least I will gain more experience. Not the closer one know you inside out, but those who are out there. I pretended to be strong that I won't be affected by it, but still I once regarded them as a friend of mine. It still hurts. I am going to breakdown soon.

I doubts I have the power to influence someone.